hollywood

hellz yeah

life is good.
working on a lot of stuff!
im having tons of fun in charleston, but i do miss home.
i'll update when i have more to say later.

So that job kinda bummed me yesterday, they liked me n shit, but they want to interview me in LA, not just on the phone, which sucks. Idk what to do, we'll see.

Im gonna work on music today/tonight. Once were in LA finally, I'm gonna be really focused on that and everything I want to start doing for my "goals" in life, and "career" lol, its not gonna be like when i left LA, when i went out every night. Im gonna be focused on my work, music, and girlfriend. I really feel like, i dont know how to describe it and im prolly talking out my ass, but i feel grown up, like finally, i really feel no need to want to party all the time or drink n shit, i will though occasionally, but, im actually at the point in my life where i want more, and i think im passed that stage now, god knows the last two years ive done more partying and antics than most, haha. I feel like my LIFE has finally started, like this is the beginning of my adulthood, haha, that sounds really lame too when i read it back to myself but its true. I know exactly what I want to do, I have my goals, I know exactly where I want to live, what I have to do to achieve it all, and I have the most amazing girlfriend I could seriously see myself marrying one day. So really, I feel like I've kinda got it all right now, and I know plans may be changed, set backs, may have to wait a small amount of time for things, but I'm not worried cause I'm more than happy to wait, because I know everything is gonna work out perfectly.

I might be doing interviews and some designs for this magazine, http://www.musicfashionmagazine.com, after im out in LA for good, which will be cool.

I got my weeeeds for this weekend yesterday after some crackhead tried to pull one over on me, i was like, "ah hell naw boy, what is this, a nugget of elf shit, are you really trying to get me to give you $40 for this?" haha and then he tried to tell me it was good, i go, "man im a pothead from california, this weed makes dirt look like gold, ill give you $40 for all of this, not that lil shit nugget you got there" which was barely a dub, i think when he knew he had lost, he gave in, lol. played the playa, yeeeeeeyuhhhh.

saturday will be amazinggg.
im tired of writing, peace.

ok so I've got a phone interview today with that job, apparently they loved my artwork and my resume, so, them wanting to schedule a phone interview after a day has got to be good right?! lol, let's hope so, i'll be sure to make sure everyone in the fucking world knows if i get this job, no worries.

on another note, this weekend is going to be the best fucking weekend of my life, minus the weekend i met my future wife in LA. The even better thing is, this is just so farrrr :]


if my next post is a lot of jibberish and doesnt make sense im probably very intoxicated, on drugs, or hyperventilating because i got this job and i move to LA in 9 days.

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The job I wanted in LA called me back at lunch, im waiting for them to come back from lunch to call them back, this could be amazing!!!

If I get this job Im gonna have to move to LA next month, like I'll have to start November 12th at the latest unless I can get them to push it back longer, so Im gonna have to talk to melissa about it cause ill need somewhere to stay till the end of the month! I'm crossing my fingers, $32/hr would be fucking amazing.

today is turning out spectacularrrly

Monster now makes coffee energy drinks, as if there wasn't enough shit in an energy drink already they had to add caffiene to the mix, haha.

I have no clue what's going on with me and Christine's moving plans now, It's so confusing. It was all messed up yesterday and then last night I found out we might still be able to get our friends loft, I might have to quit my job in PA, but on the other hand Ill have a job in Charleston waiting for me, at least for a month or two. So I'm not really sure there are seriously 10 different scenarios going on right now lol.

According to my co-worker he is probably quitting his job here and going to another job, in which case I have to quit and move. That's 50/50 if it's happening or not. If that does happen then it'll be next month in which case two things could happen, lol. Either me and christine move to LA and take molly's apartment if it's still possible, or, I move to charleston and work there for a month or so to keep saving money and then when we have a comfortable amount we leave for LA and will just have to find another place out there. If we take our friends loft, that'd be december 1st. Now if my co-worker doesnt leave here, then im going to stay until the end of january working so we have like 5 months of our rent paid then i'd finish moving to LA, christine would move in december 1st. If my co-worker leaves, then I'd either have to leave for LA the end of november or move to charleston and work there and then meet christine in LA in january. Now, This morning, I got an email about a job in Los Angeles doing what I do now, so I have to see about that, and there is a job in the valley I have to call a guy back about today so I guess I'll see about that too, if one of those work then everything is all good and we can move whenever cause I'll have a good paying job out there already, my income wont be zero when we get there lol. That's the ultimate thing I want to happen, so we'll see. This all is really confusing as you can tell lol. Whatever happens it'll be all good, we'll be happy no matter what and were going to california no matter what so it really doesnt matter which situation happens.

B and Drake are giving us hella furniture and stuff and a bed so we've already got that taken care of too which fucking rules! thats one less thing we have to do right away.

I have no clue whats going on the month of december either. It's Christine's birthday which she wants to spend in LA, it's christmas which my dad wants to see me during, i have no clue what christine's plans are, and i wanted to be with her on new years cause its our 4 month anniversary not to mention its fuckign new years lol. so, i need to get that all figured out in the next few weeks cause thats a shitload of traveling and i need to cut it down cause that shits gonna be expensive, which sucks when your supposed to be saving lol. If were in LA though Im just staying there, Ill visit my dad eventually, he saw me for 20 years on christmas, it's not like im going to be around for every holiday now, that's what phone calls and cards are for lol.

god damn this entry is long, ill shut up now, peace

have sucked some assshole, hopefully everything works out.

Just rackin' them dollars up for me and my girl. So Far I have our first month's rent saved.

Thank god for weed, it's the only thing keeping me sane in PA without my girlfriend, friends, or anything to do lol. I think I need to buy some more tonight.

I've got good reasons to love this winter.

devin showed me this band Dameira today, they're ok.
I need to make some phone calls and get high dawg.

me and christine are going as andy and edie for halloween..



nobody better steal our idea either bitches. I have a feeling this halloween is gonna be the best yet, we'll see how it pans out.

new radiohead is pretty damn good.

i wonder if anyone still reads the cereal box like when they were a kid, haha. I do. half my work day is almost over, love it. this is exactly whats happening when i get home: rolling a blunt, then exercising, then smoking my blunt as a lil good job for working out, haha, god im a nerd, then working on music. I've decided im not drinking until my girlfriend comes at the end of the month, two weeks. I got so much weed last night from this thug guy, i got a half but i gave him a dime for getting it for me since it was a huge hassle and for me finding weed around here is slim to none usually. he told me he was into my music...nickelback, guns n roses, and some other god awful band, ahahahaha, i just snickered and said yeah, that's cool. he wanted to come over and smoke out of my GB, hmmmm, still thinking about that one, lol, i think i may lie and say my roommates said no, i dont like trusting people around here, that bit my ass once already. i was offered crack last night, my mature sound judgements came into play, i said NO, haha, ive never done crack and personally have no aspiring 'want' to do it. i thought it was funny he offered it to me though, that's crackheads for ya. I'm saving some weed for when christine visits, i already rolled her a peach blunt and saved it in the tube it came in, i put it in my secret drug box, which really isnt secret at all, hahaha. surprisingly enough im liking the cold weather, it's making it hell to wake up in the morning though, i always wanna lay there and go back to sleep.

i had THEE BEST dream last night. mmmmmmmm :]

it's cold out and im rollin a blunt, mmmmmm.

15 days til my bay bay, charlotte bring me my soul power alreadyyyyy.

Christine inspired me to start exercising again. I'm going to the pool to swim laps today. Gonna get me some toning action goin on. I mine as well start swimming laps at YMCA again, I did pay for the membership, I'd be a dumbass to waste the money. We'll see if I notice any changes...

I made my music page. last night I started working on it, so much shit just started coming out, I love it, it's about time I got around to it, and now that I am Im gonna keep on it! It'll be a few weeks before I have the first song up, but I dont care I'm gonna take as long as I need and take my time so I can make this shit sound perfect, I'm really excited about this...Hopefully you guys love what I'm cookin' up, guess we'll see soon enough ;]

myspace.com/hesetshimselfonfire


on a sidenote, i was thinking about everything that's happened to me in the past 6 months, and I see how much things have drastically changed, and how things are no lie 10 times better not only than they were, but than i even thought they would be at this point in my life, and i can really narrow it down to less than a handful of reasons why, i really am ridiculously in love, and i never thought itd happen. it feels really good knowing someone loves you unconditionally no matter what, i've never had that before, my family doesnt count, haha.

im really fucking siked to get a song doen, im prolly gonna be wasting my afternoons and weekends doing that from now on, but thats really a good thing, it'll keep my mind off being away from tine and the anticipation of going back to cali. I've got so many plans, sometimes it feels like im gonna fucking explode with ideass. so much i wanna do, man no doubt, famous in less than two years and rich in three, and when im determined to do something, nothing's gonna stop my ass, just watch.

livejournal your a bitch, just joke, im goin home, man its raining fuck that shit.

my fucking ear man, my fucking ear!
im gonna have to go tot he doctor later this week if by wednesday i can't do anything to get it unclogged or whatever is wrong with it un-done. not being able to hear out of one ear im discovering is extremely annoying. It's gonna cost me like $125 at the most for the visit too, exactly why I was avoiding going. Whatever though it's a small price to pay for my hearing back.

man saturday...haha i haven't been that drunk in awhile, i wasnt baliggerant, but i can't remember the walk home, haha. mmm, it woulda been more fun if i were out drinking WITH someone, soon enough.

making a list of music i need to download today. Im launching my website tonight. i fucking want LOST to start already. I got my paycheck today, fuck yeah. walking around in walmart today made me realize how white trash the place i live really is, haha, mmm cheers to that. i'm going to be ingesting a lot of drugs come the end of the month, i can tell, and i look forward to it, cause these days, not many substances of any kind go in my body, but im not necessarily saying thats a bad thing though.

OCTOBER 27TH HURRY YOUR FUCKING ASS UP!!!
19 days.

Well me and Christine have a Loft now, in North Hollywood starting end of November. Our friend is subletting it to us. It's dope as hell. I had to re-bleach my hair to go platinum the other day, it looks a hell of a lot tighter now. The girlfriend comes to visit the end of the month, I can't fucking wait, we'll be in New York for two days for a friends party and visiting people and straight partying n shit, what we do best. Fuck, I forgot my headphones today so I can't listen to music dammit.

I killed two forties last night and for some odd reason im hungover this morning!? That shouldn't be, lol. I think it's just cause of how early I had to get up, I had to be up at 5am this morning, I didn't eat last night either so that's probably another contributing factor to feeling like shit. It's all good I feel better now. Yesterday was something else, I didn't get to go in to work because my ride was sick, I had no other way in, I was intensely bored most of the day so I slept until like 4pm haha, that is a rare moment for me, I never sleep that late unless im with christine. My job better pay me today I swear, yesterday was bullshit. Best get on that shit nucca.

Now that my hair is bleached I need to trim it like I had it before I dyed it brown. The more I look at it the more I'm glad I bleached it back, I think I need to bleach it one more time though, might do that tonight since it's ben a week, just to get the yellow tint out of it. And on another note I need a tattoo soon, I badly need new INK, I think this is for my own peace of mind more so than anything else. I'm taking Tine with me to get one when I visit her in a couple weeks, makin' that shit happen! I also need to get on playing music more I've been slacking on that too, although I don't have any of my guitars anymore because I had to get rid of them before I moved up here, I had no room to bring them which fucking blew. I was waiting to get one when we moved to LA, but I think I might get a new taylor before then, I'd be so content just sitting in my room everyday playing. this is the one I want...

I played it at the guitar center manhattan a couple months ago when I was in New York, sounded fucking beautiful.

someone told me ill prolly see snow before i move from pennsylvania, that may be cool. but that means freezing rain first, not cool. well good news my ears are not hurting like a bitch anymore, bad news my throat still is, oh when will this horrid sinus cold from hell go away. im chillin with my coffee right now and a god damn its good, ive actually been cutting down on my coffee content, im doin pretty good. almost finished with my friends bands CD package, that shits pretty tight, you aint even know. there are these plants on my desk, they kinda look dead, im not sure if i am supposed to water dem bitches, they arent my plants, fuck it. im in a really good mood today, haha funny, today i feel great and everything around me looks like its in a horrid state of rotting, and yesterday when i felt like shit, everything around me was uppity and bright. haha im so badass when im happy i drain the world around me, im not sure thats badass though, i think the devil does that when he's walkin around, that is if he's real, fuck it, that is badass, haha. I've done jackshit all morning except watch you tube videos and listen to music haha and it's already 10:30am, shit, i better get to work, lates and love.

Today is me and Christine's 1 month, but it seems like we've been together so much longer than that, lol. I had 18 long stem red and white roses sent to her today. I love you Christine!!!

god i had the worst fucking ear ache last night, i couldn't even fucking sleep it hurt so bad. I had to walk to the god damn gas station to get the only thing i could, sinus meds, so i downed 4 of those fuckers and started looking up shit on the internet to do something about it, you can tell i totaly didn't wanna go tot he hospital. This one site said use warm veg. oil but i didn't have any so it said use a hot cloth and a hair dryer which miraculously fucking worked, so i advise that if it ever happens to you, i was skeptical as hell but i held the dryer on my ear for like 20 min. total and the pain dissappeared and i actually got to sleep. Thank god christine was still up or my night prolly would have lown twice as bad. now im reading articles on hunter s. thompson when he was young and working on my projects. tine just signed on so peace bitches <3